It seems as though I've completely fallen off the blogging planet! Geesh! This season is a crazy one for us to be sure. And it hasn't been without major stress. I realized this past week that I have been working WAY too many hours. Pretty much if I'm awake...I'm working. Either working, playing, caring for, or whatever else I do with the kiddos...or when they go to sleep...I start working on business related stuff. Always. There is ALWAYS something hanging over my head. I have a perpetually never-ending list of "to-do's" for my business. And it's been weighing me down lately.
I don't know what it is to sit down and enjoy a good book or watch a TV show or take a walk on a nice evening. All I know these days is work, work, and more work. Soooooo...I decided to make myself a schedule. I built in three days off every week (one of them being today, hence the time to blog). :) And by off...that means that during the kids' naps I am not allowing myself to do anything work-related. And when they go to bed...again...nothing work-related. It's ME time. I can enjoy some time hanging out with my hubby or social-networking online (Facebook, blogging, etc)...or dare I say that I might begin a new book? ;)
I waited SO many years to be a mommy. And my DREAM was to stay at home so that I could spend quality time with them and joyfully raise them. I did not plan to be an entrepreneur...running what would be considered by some, a fairly successful business. I didn't intend to be a working mom. But here I am. It all kind of just fell into my lap. And please don't get me wrong...I REALLY do LOVE being a photographer. I do. I just have not been good about prioritizing my time and managing my work. And therefore, I have become a stressed-out, always exhausted, highly impatient, not-completely-here kind of mommy. And that just breaks my heart.
So things are going to change. They have to. I am at the end of my rope in so many ways! I am excited to have a new work "schedule!" :) I am looking forward to having days OFF...though for anyone who is a mommy...you know that you never really truly get one of those! ;) Hehe. But at least days off of my other job. It'll be good. And hopefully that'll mean I get to spend some more time better documenting my own family's life!
I keep thinking in the back of my head how funny all of this is, really. I have this post about how stressed I am with my business, and yet I am currently in the running for "BEST Portrait Photographer" in central Indiana - a title that I would be honored to receive! I'm SO thankful that there isn't a category for "BEST mommy" in central Indiana...cause sadly, I would probably rank closer to the bottom of that one! I need to do some life re-arranging here and really focus on what matters most to me.
More later! I'm off to enjoy more of my "FREE" time!! :)
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Bad, bad blogger!
I know, I know! It's been a month since my last post! Where does the time go? I'll tell you how it goes...TOO FAST! These kiddos are growing up before my very eyes! I can hardly believe it! We've had a busy start to our summer, traveling up to Fort Wayne a couple of times, as Kevin's grand mother recently passed away. We've also endured a round of illness here. Kevin and I both had a horrible virus that came with LOTS of vomiting. I ended up in the ER a couple of weeks ago. Not fun.
Then both of the kiddos got a virus that manifested in a rash and diarrhea. Oh joy! (see the photos below of Naomi's face) So the past week, we've been keeping it really low-key. Several weeks ago, we enrolled Isaac in Lil Kickers - a soccer league for toddlers! :) I think he enjoyed it, but we were less than satisfied with the quality of the program (or maybe just the teacher)...and so we pulled him out after four classes. He hasn't mentioned it once since! Go figure!
Naomi is a speed-crawler these days and still shows zero signs of walking any time soon. She can stand along furniture (and LOVES to climb on everything)...but can't stand very long without support and hasn't come close to taking a first step. It's not a big deal, though, as she is probably going to be about 3 months behind, since she was in a cast for 3 months. So that would put her more at where a typical 10-month-old would be. I'm not too worried.
Isaac continues to be quite the little communicator. He is SO matter-of-fact when he speaks. He makes us smile and laugh OFTEN. :) Here are some of his recent sayings:
"I'm sorry May-o-mee...I didn't mean to hurt you!" (we hear this A LOT)
He still calls his bicycle a "bi-kissel" :)
When I dress him in nice shorts, rather than gym shorts, he says, "Oooooh! These are FANCY shorts, Mommy!"
If we ask him not to do something, he'll say, "But I DO want to do that."
Instead of just answering yes to a question, he'll say, "I sure do!"
"I crap (crack) you up!"
"That was so kind of you, Mommy! Thank you for getting a snack for me!"
"Right now I'm working on my poopy, Mommy. It's okay. I'm fine with it."
Me: "Come here, sweet baby." Isaac: "Mommy, I not a baby!" Me: "Well then what are you?" Isaac: "I'm a big boy." Seriously? Already? :(
And just to show how matter-of-fact he can be, he told me this yesterday morning while we were sitting at the table for breakfast:
"First I'm gonna take a bite of this oatmeal. Then I'm gonna get down off this chair so I can play with May-o-mee."
Hehe. He LOVES to narrate whatever is going on. Pretty cute. He also loves to tell me what Naomi is thinking and feeling. "I think she wants her mommy."
She is pretty good about letting us know when she wants or needs something. She is LOUD and screams to get our attention. This is new to us, as Isaac seemed to be a lot more mellow. Maybe it's just the difference between boys and girls...or first and second born? Who knows!
Another new thing in our home...we started potty-training. And quit after a few days. He is completely capable, but entirely unwilling...and therefore, just not ready. But here's our problem: he will NOT keep his stupid diaper on. We have tried duct tape, tight-snapped clothes, etc. He is a little Houdini...and gets it off no matter what we do! Not only does he take it off...he enjoys peeing all over everything. His favorite place to mark is the sheets in his crib! UGH! He'll go pee every time we put him on the potty. No big deal. He's even pooped on it a few times. But he just isn't motivated by anything to not go in his underwear. It's SO frustrating. And I'm SO over it. I don't want to potty-train him right now. But he's kinda making it necessary.
Anyway...that pretty much sums up what we've been up to for the past month. They LOVE playing outside...both in the water and the sandbox. Sand is my nemesis. It's everywhere and I can't stand it! :) But they love it...so it remains. :) Here are some photos from the past month...
(Yes...she eats it just like Isaac did!)
Then both of the kiddos got a virus that manifested in a rash and diarrhea. Oh joy! (see the photos below of Naomi's face) So the past week, we've been keeping it really low-key. Several weeks ago, we enrolled Isaac in Lil Kickers - a soccer league for toddlers! :) I think he enjoyed it, but we were less than satisfied with the quality of the program (or maybe just the teacher)...and so we pulled him out after four classes. He hasn't mentioned it once since! Go figure!
Naomi is a speed-crawler these days and still shows zero signs of walking any time soon. She can stand along furniture (and LOVES to climb on everything)...but can't stand very long without support and hasn't come close to taking a first step. It's not a big deal, though, as she is probably going to be about 3 months behind, since she was in a cast for 3 months. So that would put her more at where a typical 10-month-old would be. I'm not too worried.
Isaac continues to be quite the little communicator. He is SO matter-of-fact when he speaks. He makes us smile and laugh OFTEN. :) Here are some of his recent sayings:
"I'm sorry May-o-mee...I didn't mean to hurt you!" (we hear this A LOT)
He still calls his bicycle a "bi-kissel" :)
When I dress him in nice shorts, rather than gym shorts, he says, "Oooooh! These are FANCY shorts, Mommy!"
If we ask him not to do something, he'll say, "But I DO want to do that."
Instead of just answering yes to a question, he'll say, "I sure do!"
"I crap (crack) you up!"
"That was so kind of you, Mommy! Thank you for getting a snack for me!"
"Right now I'm working on my poopy, Mommy. It's okay. I'm fine with it."
Me: "Come here, sweet baby." Isaac: "Mommy, I not a baby!" Me: "Well then what are you?" Isaac: "I'm a big boy." Seriously? Already? :(
And just to show how matter-of-fact he can be, he told me this yesterday morning while we were sitting at the table for breakfast:
"First I'm gonna take a bite of this oatmeal. Then I'm gonna get down off this chair so I can play with May-o-mee."
Hehe. He LOVES to narrate whatever is going on. Pretty cute. He also loves to tell me what Naomi is thinking and feeling. "I think she wants her mommy."
She is pretty good about letting us know when she wants or needs something. She is LOUD and screams to get our attention. This is new to us, as Isaac seemed to be a lot more mellow. Maybe it's just the difference between boys and girls...or first and second born? Who knows!
Another new thing in our home...we started potty-training. And quit after a few days. He is completely capable, but entirely unwilling...and therefore, just not ready. But here's our problem: he will NOT keep his stupid diaper on. We have tried duct tape, tight-snapped clothes, etc. He is a little Houdini...and gets it off no matter what we do! Not only does he take it off...he enjoys peeing all over everything. His favorite place to mark is the sheets in his crib! UGH! He'll go pee every time we put him on the potty. No big deal. He's even pooped on it a few times. But he just isn't motivated by anything to not go in his underwear. It's SO frustrating. And I'm SO over it. I don't want to potty-train him right now. But he's kinda making it necessary.
Anyway...that pretty much sums up what we've been up to for the past month. They LOVE playing outside...both in the water and the sandbox. Sand is my nemesis. It's everywhere and I can't stand it! :) But they love it...so it remains. :) Here are some photos from the past month...
(Yes...she eats it just like Isaac did!)
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